It's amazing how good your friends can make you feel when they're being extra friendly. :) I'm super blessed by Nick and David who just painted my whole room and moved all the furniture! I love those guys.
I've been really blessed, not just by the boys but all over my life recently. God's been totally playing a role in my life lately. Actually, I'm not even completely sure why. Though I've had all these spiritual highs and exciting levels God brought me into this past year, lately I've been ignoring Him. Not totally abandoning God or running away from Him, just not really giving him a second glance. I know He exists. I know He wants to be there for me. But I haven't reached out and taken His hand.
Maybe you had that friend in middle school. Besties. You would hang out as much as physically possible, (even enough to maybe start to annoy the people around you). You would have all these random inside jokes and "had-to-be-there" moments you just couldn't explain to others. You and that friend would call or IM or text each other every night even after you just spent all day together. You'd stay up late talking about everything or simply nothing. Then, out of really nowhere, the calls became fewer and the time spent together started to fizzle down. Now when you see each other, instead of a wild and crazy hug/secret handshake, it's a little half-smile. Nothing like it once was.
That's what I feel like I did to my once Best Friend. I found other friends or things more exciting or worthy of my time and forgot all the remarkable experiences God and I've had together. I've fallen back into my rut He saved me from already. He keeps reaching for me. I see Him, but I keep telling Him to hang on, hang on, almost God, but I don't need fully You quite yet.
This is my step out of what I've become. God, please take me back. Here I am. I'm Yours. All of me. For all of You. Every day. Hold me close and give me the strength to keep my eyes and heart focused on You. There is no one like You. Be my everything. Thank You for everything I've been taking for granted all this time. You are so good to me.
2 Bless the LORD, O my soul,
And forget not all His benefits:
3 Who forgives all your iniquities,
Who heals all your diseases,
4 Who redeems your life from destruction,
Who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies,
Psalm 103:2-4
2 Shake yourself from the dust, arise;
Sit down, O Jerusalem!
Loose yourself from the bonds of your neck,
O captive daughter of Zion!
Isaiah 52:2
8 Oh, that men would give thanks to the LORD for His goodness,
And for His wonderful works to the children of men!
9 For He satisfies the longing soul,
And fills the hungry soul with goodness.
Psalm 107:8-9
